I think it is time to change the name of the blog. I would like to call it “In an absurd, absurd world”. Feels strange that at some point of time I thought it should be called “Miles to go…”. Go where? To an unappetizing future? Or to the unappealing past that, unlike some luckier souls, I can’t romanticize. Of course, to the extent that you are living, you are going somewhere. And the distance might very well be in miles. It doesn’t leave you or the world any better off though. So why have that as a motto of sorts. It is simply a given, a compulsion.
The only miles I would really like to go are the literal miles. That you cover in traveling. But I don’t want to do so to achieve anything, not to make the world a better place, nor to make myself a better person. It seems like more harm is done to the world in the attempts to make it better than just letting it be would have done. And more pride is instilled in one’s person by the attempts at betterment than would have naturally been there.
It is theoretically impossible to create more happiness by creating more things. Either physical or virtual. More things only create more reasons to be disappointed when you don’t have them. The solution to happiness problem today is in distribution. And that solution will not come about, because we, the human race, are not the product of anything “humane”. We are the product of a bloody (literal, not the curse word) evolution. There is nothing inherently (what we call) humane in us. It is all self-interest and an immediate, highly short-term self-interest at that. For one reason or the other we have kept coming up with systems to channel and control the fierce self-interest. Tribes, religion, rulers, nations, democracy, organizations, corporates etc. etc. We will keep coming up with them, but they will be products of our limited abilities, and each of them will be marred by the same self-interest it tries to control. So we can keep creating institutions, but it is self-interest that has caused our rise (if it can be called rise) and it is self-interest that will lead us to our fall. Because the self-interest is now combined with illusions of grandiose.
But until then, we are at the mercy of man-made systems. They have become so pervasive that an individual will find no space outside of them. And in that system, if you have to eat and survive, you have to keep making things. Things that cannot create happiness.
You are doomed.