I had thought, I won’t write about placements. I had thought I would not give this matter so much of importance. And if I had to talk about just myself, I could have avoided giving this importance. Quite sometime back I have stopped valuing my worth with respect to job processes.
But this system forces you to live a “slot”ted life. People seem to determine their worth by which slot they got a job in. And system does not help it either. You just have to look at those gloomy faces to feel the disgust. (At times I really felt that let me getting a job be delayed and let one of these people have one; since I am not going to have a nervous break-down anytime soon!) And as I talk about it to some people, it only makes me feel more appalled to realize how deeply rooted it is and how sacrosanct the whole idea is considered. Apparently one of the ways to judge a B-School in India is the ratio of number of job offers in various slots. And probably one would want to be a slot-1 institute and not slot-2 or later (meaning which slot they get a large number of offers in).
As far as I am concerned, I am a slot-2 individual. And I care little. I could not force myself to have adoration for those who got the jobs before me or pity for those who got it afterwards, unless I have such emotions for them as individuals. Its such a crazy thing to do. And yet people do it. They see how irrational the recruitment process can get, they complain and still they value it, still they tend to determine their worth by their slot! God, its a slotted life people are living here and its an insult of human life I would say.
Some people feel the urge to tell me, “Its natural, Jaya. Think of someone sitting in the ‘process’ (as it is called) from Day 1 and not getting a job.” Yes, I know, its natural to feel physical and mental fatigue. Its natural to feel ever depressed. And yet, it is forced by the system to feel worthless, gloomy about the prospects of life and what not! It is not as natural as it is made to sound. It is natural to feel like encouraging people if they have not gotten a job yet, an yet it is not natural that they should be pitied!
This time it was only a summer placement; God knows what will they do during the finals. “Ending up in a slot 3 company” seems to be the best way to describe someone’s worthlessness in this.
I detest it.
And yes, talking about system, it reminds me of one of the articles, I had read for my CB course at IITK. In effect it said that system/society can not viewed as a sum-total of all the individuals in it. The behaviour of society can not be predicted from the behaviour of all individuals etc. One of the reasons given for this was the historical baggage we carry. Several things come not from the individuals present now, but from those in past. And that the system sticks to them can not be explained by the attitude or behaviour of individuals. Isn’t this slotted feeling one such baggage which was made sacrosanct at some point of time. There does not seem to be anything wrong with individuals! Or is there something?
Disclaimer: I really admire the way the process is managed for these five days. For the first time at IIML, I felt like I want to do this! Its simply awesome the way things are carried out smoothly. So, as long as at a personal level, worshipping the “God Slot” is not a pre-requisite, I would like to work for process.